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Anticipation ..

What I need to remember is I am a better performer with a challenge.  I am results-driven and respond to someone (including me) telling me I can't do something.  The goal then is to prove that statement wrong!  I'd been discouraged in this free-fall from Thanksgiving to Christmas, telling myself I'd never be motivated the way I'd been during the Fall.  Good eating, running 5 days a week - racking up 15-20 miles a week - all seemed out of reach post-free fall.

Today is different.  My schedule currently allows for running time in the evening - unless I get sidetracked.  Tonight I was not sidetracked.  In fact, I looked forward to running all day.  I couldn't wait to get home and lace up my running shoes.  Weird, huh?

I spent more time thinking about how to continue positive choices.  On a way around campus today, I thought of ways to incorporate more protein and whole grains into my meals.  I walked briskly to music, smiling at people as I kept a good pace.  It felt good.

Tonight I ran 4 miles.  They felt better than last night.  I was determined.  And I was successful.  Someone asked me today how old I was, and without hesitation I told them.  I'm proud of my 46 years and all that I've learned, and learned to let go of during that time.  Whew!  Sometimes what I was carrying around was heavier than me at my heaviest.

Take a breath.  Look around.  Find comfort and satisfaction in where you are.  I just did!

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